As anyone who read my last post knows, the whole 'living on my own' thing is kind of blowing up in my face. I don't have enough money to sustain myself, job market is shit (though apparently Wall Street says it's getting better according to what I can only describe as a manic depressant stock market [see? SEE?!]), and I honestly am not sure where to go from here, though my reasoning tells me the obvious and best choice is to move back in with my family...my faerie senses are telling me that I should just get a survival knife, a few lighters, some canned food, and go build a small hobbit like house somewhere in the woods where I can vacation from humanity for a while lol. (I'm being totally serious haha).
But! There have been some good things that came out of my dabbling in independence from my parents. I have been raised to be independent. Despite the current factors outside of myself which limit my ability to function in this society without them, I am mentally and emotionally prepared to be on my own. And that in and of itself, I think, is what I really sought in the first place. To be able to test myself out in this man-made reality, in the modern human's habitat. To see how I manage with people that are outside of my previous realm of experiences. To know myself, in essence. And to see how far I've come...and how far I still have to go before I am who I want to be. Or perhaps, to be able to truly see my potential and my own inner power.
So thank you parental units of mine. I may have complained a lot about my childhood, and you guys, and etc. but it's only natural...I am a teenager after all haha :0P (just kidding, don't rely on such a foolish stereotype to explain my behavior >.< )
But honestly...thank you. Seems you did a better job with my difficult self than I ever gave you credit for.
And now as I head on in this weird journey I have set out on, it is clear to me now that I have the tools and skills I need to succeed and deal with whatever obstacles that come to me. And also, that I have relationships with compassionate and trustworthy individuals.
Now I just have to allow myself the opportunity, the self-discipline, and above all, self-encouragement to be able to do what I need to do.
I GOT THE POWERRR!...now I just need to use it.
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And there you have it, your daily dose of delicious, nutritious thought. (>^_^)>#
Wow my little cousin whom I adore and admire so much for being courageous and willing to stand alone with whatever mission or desire that you must fulfill. I was deeply touched by your thoughts. I can say I have been there and have done that.lol! I have the support of our family. From some the support is minimum but,your parents alone have been huge supporters in my life. So I understand what your going through. During rough times like these its best to stay as close to our supporters as possible.. because while they may seem to be doing all of the work supporting us , we to support them during the journey by being the best person that we can be. Love ya,and dont worry it will all fall into place.
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